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99th Post

2010-02-25T18:23:00.001+08:00

Moved to a new place.

Leaving this bad memories behind, lol.

As if.

Neways, check my new blog

http://shironekow.blogspot.com

this post...

2009-03-28T00:49:00.003+08:00

is the last.

As well as many other things.

Goodbye.

Slm.

Revisited

2009-03-28T00:44:00.005+08:00

Revisited. Hope this clears the confusion to my attempt to be a lil bit creative...haha.

im gonna kill myself tonight

sorry pa, sorry ma
i love you
sorry friends, sorry neighbour
thanks
sorry dearest,
this is for you

let me ascend to the higher place
the inner death
and imaginary blood gushing out from my vein
yet its crystal through my eyes
let me be in a peaceful demise
a slumber
my temporary death.

let me : –verb (used with object)

1.	to allow or permit: to let him escape.

2.	to allow to pass, go, or come: to let us through.

3.	to grant the occupancy or use of (land, buildings, rooms, space, etc., or movable property) for rent or hire (sometimes fol. by out).

4.	to contract or assign for performance, usually under a contract: to let work to a carpenter.

5.	to cause to; make: to let one know the truth.

6.	(used in the imperative as an auxiliary expressive of a request, command, warning, suggestion, etc.): Let me see. Let us go. Just let them try it!

slumber : –noun

1.	Sometimes, slumbers. sleep, esp. light sleep.

2.	a period of sleep, esp. light sleep.

a state of inactivity, quiescence, etc.

temporary –adjective

1.	lasting, existing, serving, or effective for a time only; not permanent: a temporary need; a temporary job.

"Allow me to sleep, give me space so i can sleep, rest, aka not study my brain out so i can be "dead" or free from world-ly stuff for a while."

やっと！

2009-03-24T10:06:00.002+08:00

My 2nd home~

...sejuk. Konna ni samukattakke?

the F word...

2009-03-16T21:57:00.002+08:00

can i say it? Now? The four letters. The famous f word. Urgh!

Flea.

[ My shalws babies...lmbt bkk e-mail, hua!! y__y come to mummy cpt2 sayangs...]

Regret

2009-03-16T00:18:00.003+08:00

Well, i'm very thankful to God that i've been given a chance to go oversea again. Specifically, Japan...again. Not many can afford to go anywhere they want and stay there, especially at my age. Still dependant on parents and all...

But there is one biggest regret that i have, doing whatever i'm doing now.

Not growing up with my borthers.

Technically, we didn't grow up together much. Aqim was born when i'm almost 8, soon later Pa moved to Miri while Ma still in Labuan, waiting for the labour of Adi. I followed Pa, because it's easier to change school during the opening of school year. It lasts for about a few months. I remember Pa mengomel2, terkenang masa we both live together "Pa lost weight because of kakak la, anta amik skola...(my school is in tgh2 bandar, we live dkt outskirts) makan sardin hari2.." lol...cian Papa...

Then, when i'm in secondary school, just when my brothers start their pre-school...my family had to move again. This time i'm the one who's left behind. Changing school was not in the plan, because the school that i enrolled in at the time is quite a good school (KTDTHB y'all!) on of the best too, if not the best :) So i lived with my angah (aunty actually) until i graduated form 5. Ma, Pa n adik2 did come n visit me every fornight, if i'm not on the 3 hours bus to Bintulu to meet them (that was when the by-pass way was yet completed).

After SPM, i took the road not taken (lol) and went to Japan on an exchange student program. For 11 months. It was one of the greatest experience, and when most people see it as "membazir 1 tahun" i don't think so. Studying in JAD was not really a breeze, but i'm glad i did not suffer as much headache as my friends does at the beginning of the program. And even got me something special at the end of JAD :) Now my friends tengah gelabah about going to Japan, alhamdulillah, i have the experiece right in my pocket. Well, but still nervous bout going there again...

Back from Japan, my butt pon x smpt utk memanaskan the sofa in my house, i got that dreadful letter from PLKN (blueargh! just saying it making me...brrr) Off i go, doing whatever. Everyone thought i was chinese, sometimes to malas to explain, i just pretend that i'm a banana (white inside, yellow outside) "Oh, i can't speak chinese laa" haha...i still remember the face when i asked a fellow PLKN (bluergh!) member where the surau was. Bottom line was, i was away from my beloved family...

But the JAD news got to me when i was in that dreadful camp...and i was the happiest person on the Bumi Emas (or was it Mas? Or did i just mention a totally different name?) camp. Hehe.. No time spent at home, i was already in Shah Alam, in a room without carpeting or proper floor, at least. A creaky bed, half-a-double-decker, next to Rai. And there goes my 3 years.

When i came back after the exam last time, i saw Aqim with specs (hensem...da kakak comel, mesti la hehe) n Adi grew more inches, making me the "adik" in the family. And went to Adi's football match, he's selected to represent Kidurong...the small area where we live, hehe.

All that, and more...i'm going to miss out.

*sigh*

Adik Aqim, adik Adi...you guys will owes be my favourite gusti partners...

yeay!

2009-03-15T16:03:00.000+08:00

Genki de yokatta! :)

and then, there was none...

2009-03-12T22:36:00.002+08:00

And then there is no you in my life.

I'm scared. I'm crushed, I'm devastated.

But whatever left of me is whatever there was, the whole of me.

And that it never really changed.

p/s: Thanks for the girlie-night-talk Zackku chan~ hehe....mata Kansai de ;p (hopefully...huhu)

MFPITW

2009-03-12T01:36:00.000+08:00

Odaijini :(

Hope you can make it...

p/s: Sorry for the "masam" anggur...my bad. My bad.

Tak faham bahasa ka...

2009-03-12T01:30:00.003+08:00

Can't really keep it inside for so long.

" FAHAM-FAHAM LAA... " is now officially a totally useless phrase. Because people don't use it. It referring to their brain to decipher the meaning, and applying it to the current situation. Let's think and "FAHAM-FAHAM LAA" your function and your mission. I am human with my own needs, feelings, schedule, plans etc. Penat.

FAHAM-FAHAM LAA...

pretty people are annoying

2009-03-06T16:23:00.002+08:00

...because they make every shawls/dress/tops/skirts on their little blogshop looks so nice. And they make me wanna buy-em-all >.<

RM1500 suda masukk!!

[ Why do i keep getting these sms-es from Channel X, XPAX etc2~?? Haih, each time my phone berbunyi...beri harapan palsu!!

Ma, maa...get well soon k? :) ]

久しぶりに...

2009-03-05T22:17:00.004+08:00

パパとデートした。

Huhu, i'm gonna miss being my pa's lil girl when i'm away. We had Sarawak's best - Teh C Peng Special!! Yum2...and chatted a bit. Pa's not much of a chatter (unless u get him started...lol) But he's one funny man.

I'm gonna miss him~ :(

should i...or should i not?

2009-03-04T23:02:00.002+08:00

online shopping...

huaa... *rambang mata*

the colourful shawls~

the cute preppy socks~

the flowy skirts~

the money YPM will bank in tomorrow >.<

p/s: i just found out that...i'll be in Shah Alam this Sunday, for 5 days, then back to Bintulu again for less than a week, then off to KL again 3 days or so before flying off. Tidaa~k!!

Why so soon? I can't even rest!

i'm just not that into them...

2009-03-04T19:05:00.003+08:00

Ahh, yes.

It's me, remember? And i'm writing (crahp) non-stop again.

Well, since i have so much time in hand, and currently having all this thing in my mind. BPMS...Brain-PMS. I've been thinking about the people i've encountered from tadika, sekolah rendah, high school (ugh) and beloved JAD. And the thousand "perangai" these people have. For the first part, i'm gonna unveil the traits that...well, im not so fond of. Technically, these characteristics can be found in everyone i know, including myself, its the level of how-much-i-can-stand-them that sets the difference between 無視できる-ness and annoyance. Some of the time they're just strangers that i walk pass by at the mall etc. My, they are everywhere, aren't they?

***Ignore my engrish.

Type #1 : Mr./Ms Operator

Hello...hello? U there sir? Hear ye hear ye~!

Personally, i don't like people cutting me off halfway, when i am talking. Especially when i'm talking to someone/about something important/urgent or when i am too engrossed with the conversation. Especially ESPECIALLY when people start calling my name a lot of times for un-important business...for instance, how to spell tomorrow (Tommo...tomorr...whatever) Or asking me what is in my purse, the colour of my grand auntie's eyes, the current petrol-price...WHATEVER la they want to know/borrow/ask/tell/debate at that moment. Sabarr...lemme finish my sentence with this dude, ok?

I need my time, space and comfort zone. Step in once, twice, three times...i can prolly stand, but more than that...well, probably won't show that i'm too annoyed, yelah, i still have right-minds lagi nk jage ati ngko/korang/kamu/you all...cume ngko/korang/kamu/you all je yang kadang2 xreti plak nak jage mine.

Tip(s): Tap me/Poke me with a pen/a roll of paper on the shoulder if it's that important. Because i hate to accidentally "annoy" people by "ignoring" them, as they say. Unless if its a dead/alive situation, stop talking and just pull me out of danger. And if you're a person at KL Sental, trying to give me free Celcom sim-cards...forget it. Another one is, knock before entering my room. Even my parents terpaksa do so. Lol...sorry pa, ma.

Type #2 : Peanut-lover (aka Save my brain, save my world)

"Me, me, me, me, me...and me.

The world revolves around me. Infact, the world revolves "because" of me. It is "I" that make this all happen. And whoever is against me, is against the peace of the whole mankind!!"

My rear.

"What? Did he/she just said, "peanut"?! OMeffinG he/she is definitely pointing his/her sniper rifle on the back of my head!! (pengaruh CS la ni...) I can just fe~el the laser burning a hole in my skull... They are on me! They're trying to kill me! They're trying to get their revenge towards me! They are trying to fight with me! They sengaja say/do/shout/dance/swim/acrobat/wiggle all this just to piss me off! AND THEY SAY I HAVE A BRAIN THE SIZE OF A PEANUT!

*knock-knock* (hnn...sounds hollow. Maybe you're not so wrong bout the peanut brain after all...)

H-E-L-L-O~? Who are you again? Mr..wha-? Ah? Can't seem to register your name lah. Oh, yea...that's right. Because you are unimportant! Since when you are the centre of my world, that i have to go a~ll the way, wasting my precious energy just to annoy you? Oh, sorry~ I forgot to check my mail. You've probably sent everyone your PMS/GMS (GuyMS) cycle calendar, so that we will know when you'll be easily offended. Lemme see...eh...you PMS/GMS everyday ke? My...want me to recommend a doctor? Tch. Come on, "peanut" is such a common word. I could be talking about anything BUT you, (and most of the time, NOT even talking TO you).

This is what you get when watching too many dramas/series/movies/etc. Ever guy/girl appeared in the dramas/series/movies/etc likes the main girl/guy. And every bad guy in the dramas/series/movies/etc is trying to kill the main character. And now you are the main character of your own drama. It's not bad actually, we all have a dramatic life. But please know, unless we're paid (and paid GOOD), we're not playing those extra characters in your little drama Mr./Ms Dramatic. Malaysians should cut down these type of entertainment on TV. And put more educative stuffs like, err...roda impian? Whatever la. Get a grip on reality, man...not everything is about you.

And another variation to this type is the "OMG, he's/she's/they're totally checking me out!". Yes, Mr Tyre-face / Ms Plywood. They were. Because you've got slob of kari-ed roti canai melekat on your face. Sorry to other tyres and plywoods out there (i consider myself one, also). Not trying to make fun of the appearance. Just that, sometimes these type of people are putting

themselves on the glass shelves, hoping people will notice, and when people do, they think it's because they "got" something. No, it's because they are the ones that go after the attention first, bukannya....hn, senang cakap "perasan" la.

Tip(s): Yes, yes. He got a crush on you. Like the 10 other guys. Keep it to yourself, k? And, um...when are you actually gonna wipe off that roti canai celup kari on your pipi? Oh, and if you feel offended/annoyed/insulted/attacked/bull-ed, try to keep your distance from the "evil-being-that-is-trying-to-ruin-the-peaceful-world" and find peace. Maybe with your own kind. And calm down.

Type #3 : Manizer

Ugh. I really hope i don't fall into this category, ever! *ameen* It's bad enough there are a bunch of womanizers lurking around town...but "manizer"? They make female look less "kesian" if the hubby/boyfriend/pakwe/balak/ranting cheated on them. Because people will be like "Alaa...she's doing it also, what?"

And realllly bad if you see one of these creepy crawlies all over ur own floral keepsake. Eww! *spray2* Hn, they go about manizing and when their own hubby/boyfriend/pakwe/balak/ranting do his own session of womanizing, reti plak nk menangis. Ironic... Well, like any court case, there are always those reasons that try to legalise the act. If i'm the judge, the case would be over a decade ago.

Tip(s) : Imagine it happened to YOU? If it hurts, don't do it. And oh, stay away from me and the macho guys of my loved ones. Yes, including my atuk.

Type #4 : Tukang Semak Kertas SPM-ish

Yes...they abide by the rule. These people are the true heroes. The saviour. The hope of mankind. The protector of the weak.

Until they start to debate whether ayam dulu keluar or telur.

...

Toll-price hike, anyone? What about the Palestine issue? Yes, there are a dozen more MUCHMUCHMUCH SUPERDUPER important things in this world to discuss about. And these people go about debating about useless things. Sure, sometimes its "cute"...we fight over little things in light manners, just to brainstorm and excersise our brain. But to be all serious about it??! Come on man, ayam and telur!! Either way they go into our tummy and processed and becomes... Hn, why don't you debate which comes firts, the ayam and telur or the "..." hn?

And it's even worse if these people are the prefects >.< (Kuku oso kenot see the white2 one...haiyo. Hurts la my jari, potong until where la??)

Oh, and they tend to make lame jokes.

Tip(s) : Hn...try loosen up a bit. Keep the skema-ness tho, but use it in/to appropriate situation/crowd. It's all about control.

Type #5 : Beauty & the Beast

...both quality in one person. Well, i'm not much of a neat freak myself, but i do know the difference between pure gore-ness puke-able disgusting pile of mess and well, an "innocent" mess. Innocent, meaning temporary-there-because-i-will-clean-up-later-when-im-not-too-busy-i-promise type of mess. But still, seeing these cute, bubly creatures, sprung out anime-ish kawaii-ness, no-one expects they have a disfuncionality, namely i-can't-clean-up-after-myself.

Trust me, u don't wanna know what cute creatures eats or drinks. At least, not "the way" that i found out about them. *pauses...pukes*

Because of the uber disgusting-ness, i'll skip the details.

Tip(s) : Try getting friendly with water. And kain lap. Guys/Gals, do a background check on these cute anime-characters that you're drooling for... It's for your own good in the future.

Type #6 : Doctors & Dentists

Enough said.

Haa...like i said, everyone has some annoying qualities in them. Like me. But it's the level of whether you can stand them of not. And usually, if you're exposed to this behaviour quite often, you don't really "get used" to them; in fact, it just ticks your bombs faster than usual. Sorry if i offend anyone (read #2).

I need to lower my level of #1~5 too. Oh, another evergreen tip(s)...if you see me mcm xde mood, jangan la kacau, k? Like i said, i need my space too. Don't push me, ok? :)

.."tch" <-hana de waratta tte kanji

2009-03-04T00:15:00.006+08:00

was all i was.

~~upon reading the greatest double-standardizing in action.~~

~~*rolls eyes*~~

Doesn't quite suit what i'm trying to say, i need a different...説明 for it。p/s: My english is degrading...fast -_-;;

Anyways, despite all thah, i'm actually in a fairly good mood today :) tehee...happy, happy...haphaphappy~

Been watching all 陣内智則さんのビデオat youtube. Had me laugh over and over (padahal dah tgk) but noticed some of the videos are gone. Still looking for that one, where Jinnai-san found an old album which his mom wrote in it. Hnn...

せやけど、今日みたのはめっちゃおもろかった。日本で一回エンタの神様か陣内さんが出るライブみたいなぁ。やっぱ、大阪弁は好きやゎ、ウチ。久しぶりにつかうん、変な発音が出てくんかもしれへんけど...

I like this one...

he's just not that into you

2009-03-03T01:15:00.002+08:00

a book.

(done reading in flight back home)

a movie.

(waiting for the download)

a recomendation.

(for all gals. it hurts to know, especially when it happened to yourself, but since its from the experts, its a fact)

Malas la tulis review. Check here.

And the trailer looks funny too!

It's rare that i'm into books (gasp!) and movies that are just out (double gasps!!). Yes, i remember back then when i was soo into the song "I want to spend my lifetime loving you" my Marc Anthony and also the Zorro movie...4 years after its out. -_-;;

Oh, another one is Confessions Of A Shopaholic!! Can't wait for the movie but i'm a bit disappointed that Becky is converted into an American...she's suppose to be English. But i'm sure it'll still be funny tho.

it's been a while...

2009-03-02T17:04:00.002+08:00

1. we got a new maid at home. and she treats me like a princess. like, seriously. i can't even wash my own dish. but she's nice. i just hope that she doesn't see me as paris hilton.

2. my closet in my room if full. and here i am, with another luggage...weighing 18kg (that extra 3kgs costs me rm45!!) full of clothes.

3. my brother (aqim) wears specs.

4. my other borther (adi) is getting taller, isk2.

5. dan is having an affair!! (just watched a bit of gossip girl...need to continue)

hoshii...

2009-03-01T17:29:00.002+08:00

like i said.

2009-03-01T17:11:00.004+08:00

okdfefnebtbeijrt.

udyxjubfglrwtiys.

oifnowenfgonr.

ojsyriyppgivltof.

lefnoweffw.

yygoblytwrpihips.

ksfliwebfiwfnbg.

home sweet home

2009-03-01T12:44:00.003+08:00

Ah...my old bedroom. Stinks.

Because my brothers ~~moved in~~ took over.

Holiday, nothing to do...stories overflowing...might do some "constant" blogging for a while.

Oh, also found out/figured out something. Heh.

*rolls eyes until it bleeds in my eye socket*

I'm off for a nap. Taa~

..and then there were none.

2009-02-27T23:01:00.002+08:00

I miss you. Y__Y

Result? Target missed. And hit an un-suspecting aunty.

Ouch.

Current feelings? Rojak.

Sad.

Calm.

Blank.

Angry.

Lonely.

Content.

Annoyed.

Tranquill.

Dissatisfiyed.

..etc. I could have done better. I could have done more. I could have react wiser. I could have said something better. I could have...

could have...

not let myself be in this pile of snhiftrpht.

I still miss you badly.

figure it our yourself.

2009-02-26T18:53:00.002+08:00

LEAVE
ME
AND
MY
STUFFS
OR
WHATEVER
I
AM
DOING
.
.
.
ALONE!!!

RIMAAAAAAAAAAASSSSS!!!

dusty...

2009-02-24T00:23:00.002+08:00

is the new name for my blog.

*fuhh fuhh, wipe wipe*

My, result will be out soon. I'm anxious, excited and scared.
And we'll be off to Japan soon. I'm sad. Feels like crying a river. A dam. An ocean.

How will i survive?

On the other note. Respect la tgk kwn2 sume yg rajin meng-update blog masing2. Be it personal post, emo shout-out, educative essays, random nonsense, etc2. I usually will have ideas what to write when i read them, but as i open my own blog...nafsu menulis hilang.

*sigh*

Padahal tgh emo jugak ni. Plus other mixed feelings. Just cant get them into words.

*sigh*

Ade x laptop kalis air? Coz usually all this ideas* came when i'm in the toilet :s

*(err, more like my own conversation with myself...what's that word in English that summons that? Monologue? Whatever la...)

...and just like that

2009-02-17T18:14:00.001+08:00

my 3 years of studying as a JAD student ended.

OMG.

pseudo-Hiatus

2009-02-05T14:35:00.002+08:00

exam week, baby.

("pseudo" because i'm very well aware of my tangan gatal, so prolly a surprise update in between...)

花のない身...Ichijiku no Hana

2009-02-03T23:47:00.003+08:00

甘く、鮮やかな実
あまく、あざやかなみ

嗚呼、哀しみ携えし子よ
ああ、かなしみたずさえしこよ

...眠れ。
...ねむれ。

Vividly sweet fruit, oh you who bear the sorrows...sleep.

you are exactly where you suppose to be...

2009-02-03T15:48:00.002+08:00

right here in my kokoro <3

i'm in love with this song by Yuna. Thanks put.

This song, the melody is reflecting my exact feelings right now...my. It gives me the feeling of being at the edge of a building...you know. Alone with all the space i need and want...at the same time being at the top.

Ahh...tranquility...i miss that.

some will say "know-it-all"-ly that

2009-02-01T02:18:00.003+08:00

...no one double (triple, quad, blabla) post in blogs.
Its not cool. Or normal.
Tch.

Tp klk pndey plg madah iboh judge sidak, knk ad org2 nok sik try mok phm pa d pk sidak...etc2.
Double standard.
Mun bnda ya sik normal d mata sidak, org lain close minded.
Mun bnda ya sidak madah normal, org lain wajib ngekot.
Pelik2.

But that's not the point. Haha...

There are many types of people in the world. And it's written in God's own greatest plan that these people dwell among each other's presence. Either you mingle or avoid. But usually, at first everyone will try to get along, just to decide who's on your side and who's not. And when the decision is final, they'll just avoid crossing path with the others. Still... when time comes, sparks will fly. Not of love, but of something else but love. Bullets and bombs will also fly.

To say that the safest way is to "berdiri di atas pagar", not siding to any other group might be wrong. No one decides what kind of pagar it is. Sometimes it's pagar kayu / batu berlobang ditengah tp atas yg flat ala2 rumah Nobita so that kucing2 and even you yourself can walk comfy-ly (provided that you have great balance and not afraid of heights) on it. Yet sometimes, its the pagar dawai besi bergulung bersalutkan kaca botol hancur. It hurts...

The search for the pseudo-REAL world without barrier, (ya'know, the other world besides the internet...but can't be seen with naked eyes), is "mendou". Tak pagar kang, kucing lari g rumah sebelah. Hard to make everyone be one the same term. One will think he or she is being betrayed/used/backstabbed/duped, the other will think that it's such a small matter. But when the roles switched - comes the bashing and trashing. Hardly ever try to relate "if i'm in his/her shoes..." padahal x perlu pk pn, just have to flashback the memories of being in the similar drama - with different props and cast.

Situasi 1:
Otromen nampak king kong. King kong atas bangunan. Orang ramai takut. King kong jahat. King kong nk serang orang Nihon. Otromen baik dan kuat. Otromen fire king kong. King kong mati.

Situasi 2:
Otromen pegi US. Jalan-jalan cari makan. Powerpuff Girls tengok Otromen. Powerpuff Girls serang Otromen. Otromen cuba eksplen. Powerpuff Girls mane la nak tau ckp Jepun. Otromen mati. Tp sebelum mati, dia teringat king kong. Maybe time tu king kong nk makan sushi je kot.

Kesian otromen. Hnn...but sumhow the example a bit off. Maa, lu fikir lah sendiri.

anyways, it's just the matter of which side of the fence you're on. Then the whole point of view will be different. Sometimes, one does not realise that, he or she is on the side where his or her enemy was once at. Being hate and hating. And being the fence-walkers with the eyes and ears to see and hear both sides clearly...the feeling of safety is lost. You can't accept both, but you must understand both. What's illogical to other is common sense to the other. But no one decides whats logic and whats not. It's just how you train your mind to be. Whoever boast that they are open minded before, might have a narrower field of view than they think.

Again, just the matter on which side of the fence you're on.
Padahal bila tengok ke langit sama je kn.
The sky is over.
Us.

Tribute
>>> Ya Allah, bantulah mereka di Palestin dan negara2 yang tertindas! Ameen... <<<

...yabih! My first post in BS (not bull-, Bahasa Sarawak laa)

alamak...

2009-01-31T01:11:00.004+08:00

happy (belated) birthday rai!
zarith!
mat min!
yana!
tim!
....and all other Januarians.

it's February already...

bored

2009-01-23T18:48:00.002+08:00

i am.

but exam is nearing.

so is the flight to the land of samurai.

and the end of everything that i have worked hard for all this time.

malas laa....

my mood da jadi baik :)

2009-01-19T22:20:00.005+08:00

lurve!!

thanks rai~ its so cute >.< huhu...i luv it<3
i'm officially miss blair...lol!

that's how i look like if i wear it, seriously ;p

thanks guys *hugs*

you know you love me
xoxo,

written when i was not in a good mood...but i'll put it up anyway

2009-01-19T20:57:00.001+08:00

My TIME.
Return back my TIME i wasted with you, you, and you.
Because the one that really deserve it is...

I dont wanna go to some effing boring birthday bash.
When i say "birthday bash"
Its more like "we-wanna-go-foya2-at-Sunway-so-everyone-else-should-go-there-also-la-so-we-can-terus-jenjalan-and-also-can-jimat-cost-and-to-jimat-summore-cost-lets-eat-at-KFC-or-Pizza-Hut-(wlupun-ade-je-kat-Subang-or-some-areas-in-Shah-Alam-yang-kurang-best-utk-dating-/-outing-...-x-standard-la-beb)"
I want my time back.
I should have been at my room, go to some productive activity, and be at where he would have been.
Dia suruh jaga hati kawan.
So i went.
Sape nk jaga hati aku?

I shouldnt have went out to eat, i should have tahan perut.
Should have waited patiently for him to finish.
And then go out and have a nice lunch and talk, like we always did.
When he wasn't as busy.
Not his fault.
Should have waited.

I dont wanna sit and talk with some other guys besides him.
Dengan dia pon jarang-jarang nk duduk n borak.
I shouldnt have been there.
Should have quickly finish off, and go back.
I should have been somewhere else, spending my time with him.
Gimme back my time.

I shouldnt have asked for favour from others.
If i knew it would make my precious time with him is wasted.
I should have been there, with him, eating candies.
Not at some other place.
I appreciate the favour.
But i know i would be happier spending the time with him.

Because no one knows how im suffering...no one knows that my time with him is running out.
No one knows.
Even if anyone knows, would they care?
Heh...

kokoro

2009-01-14T20:57:00.003+08:00

many things happened. good things, bad things, greater things.
but i know now what i only "thought" i knew...
what's deep inside has never changed and seems like it never will. but the painful events may came unfold anytime soon and i'm expecting it. doesn't mean i'm ready and wont be affected, in fact, my life will change totally. but it's inevitable...necessary somehow.

but if it's you who might know what i'm talking about, please know that somethings will never change.

.
.
.
.
.

anyways, *wipe tears* just had the best dinner ever after a long time :) thanks wan mohd aizuddin, gochisou-sama! ^-^ and thanks for the very pretteh present, i'm sure ill keep me warm with the thoughts of you~

buurrp, alhamdulillah :)

one year closer to the end

2009-01-08T15:24:00.003+08:00

Happy belated birthday to me.
I'm 21...as in Forever 21's 21. Twenty One. Two zero.
Not 20...or 19...or budak sekolah.
Not that I mind if people thinks so thou :) rarely bother to correct them... Just enjoying my not-over-20 look :D
But by right, I'm eligible to vote now.
Or watch xxx sites/movies legally (I said legally, not halal-ly ;p)
I'm also have matured this few years.
yeah right.

I'm still 16. No matter how many candles there are on my birthday cake.

[Edited my poor engrish]

tagged...

2008-12-31T19:23:00.004+08:00

Back from KK, just arrived from Miri this afternoon.
Having a really bad headache.
And I'm having netsu also.
With what little energy left, this is what i can produce...
(Because it's funny!)

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song name down NO MATTER HOW silly it sounds.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Put this on your journal

1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" ... you say?
Sesuatu Yang Indah - Padi
(...jiwangs..)

2. How would you describe yourself?
Honnou (Fire/Flame) - Shiina Ringo
(Cool! I'm hot...lol)

3. What do you like in a girl?
Himitsu - Tokyo Jihen
(won't tell ya! ;p)

4. How do you feel today?
Kenangan Terindah - Samsons
(...mfpitw, :( *sob2* sumhow true, feeling so lonely)

5.What is your life's purpose?
It's All Coming Back To Me Now - Celine Dion
(err, they say look forward. but the past always hunts u i guess *sigh*)

6. What is your motto?
Call Me When You're Sober - Evanescence
(...ONLY when you're sober, or else consider urself ignored from my priority list! LOL!)

7. What do your friends think of you?
I Miss You - Blink 182
(Awwh, i miss you guys too *huggles*)

8. What do you think of your parents?
Right & Right Again - Soho Dolls
(It's aaaaaalways me who's wrong >.< huhu!)

9. What do you think about very often?
Firasat Hati - Bintang Batu
(Lol...nayami-sugiru kana, uchi?)

10. What is 2 + 2?
Long Line Of Cars - Cake
(Haha!! Adoi...4 is long eh..)

11. What do you think of your best friend?
Stupid Cupid - Mandy Moore
(Lol, they make me fall in love again & again...aah<3)

12. What do you think of the person you like?
November Rain - Guns 'n' Roses
(...why so sad? :()

13. What is your life story?
Hysteria - Muse
(LOL! Okkeh, that explains everything)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Haiiro no Hitomi (Grey Pupil) - Shiina Ringo
(Alaa, i want hazel eyes like Rai!)

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Endless Dream - OAG
(Huhu, won't tell ya what kind of dream tho ;p)

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Spiders - System Of A Down
(Is it dance-able?)

17. What will they play at your funeral?
Tsukigime Hime (Moon(?) Princess) - Tokyo Jihen
(...die and become the Moon Princess?? Hn, not bad...)

18.What is your hobby/interest?
Alone - Aqua Timez
(Un2...i like to be alone sometimes)

19. What is your biggest fear?
Threesome - Fenix TX
(err...-.-;;)

20. What is your biggest secret?
Karisome Otome (Temporary Maiden) - Shiina Ringo
(Heyy!! Not true!! Sounds like as if i'm so gatal n nak kawen a.s.a.p...)

21. What do you think of your friends?
Mardy Bum - Arctic Monkey
(Who's mardy?)

22. What will you post this as?
Nature 1 - Muse
(My nature?? No! Whatever you read, it's not the real me...really!)

im leaving on a jet plane...

2008-12-24T20:24:00.003+08:00

...but i do know when i'll be back again.
On the 29th, that is.

So, most probably i won't be connected to the internet >__<
G'bye blog, g'bye everything else...
But it'll be a blessing insyaAllah to be reunited with full members of the family :)

Till then...
You know you love me,
xoxo

my heart

2008-12-24T11:34:00.003+08:00

intoxication.
suffocation.
emotion.
temptation.

Hn, this holiday is the last. Before i'm off to Japan, insyaAllah.
But, could it also be the last one before...
I'll leave that to God to decide.

p/s:
I miss mfpitw so badly.
And it's killing me >.<

tagged by...

2008-12-17T01:16:00.006+08:00

1) do you think you're hot?
Yes.

...we are in forever-summer Malaysia, aite?
I am hot if i'm 1 ft taller.

2) upload your favourite picture of you!

3) why do you like that picture?
Hn, because my face is not in it? Haha...i'm so not photogenic. Plus my fav pics are actually the ones i took with my fav person in the world, too shy to put it up here *blush* huhu.

4) when was the last time you ate pizza?
Put's house a few weeks back. I was hungry and so x malu rummaging thru rumah org lain's foodstock. Haha...

5) the last song you listened to?
Can't remember. But "Fake Tales Of San Fransisco" by Arctic Monkeys is playing in my head now. :)

6) what are you doing right now besides this?
Rinri <3
(but i didn't post this until i'm back at home. so technically,rite now i'm promoting shauki's business)

7) what name would you prefer besides yours?
I like my name. But since you insisted, I'd like "Blair Jasmine Waldorf" XD

people i tag
#1 athyra
#2 apam XD (will he?)
#3 peyja
#4 brian
#5 didie

8) who is number 1?
Fellow JAD-ian who's currently obsessing over a Korean boy band, Tohoshinki.
Great taste in Korean/Japanese hunk, i see, huhu!

9) number 3 is having a relationship with?
I have no idea. But from the look of it, his blog? Huhu! ;p

10) say something about number 5?
She's cool, she's smart, she's artistic, and she hates the colour pink!
Should make her wear it one day, hihihi *evil laugh*

11) how about number 4?
An ol' fren from school whom i haven't met for, oww...bout 4 years now?

12) who is number 2?
A person with little word in real life.
But makes you think thrice bout that when u read his blog. Huhu!

I kyuu no benkyou

2008-12-06T15:05:00.001+08:00

Reading (+ singing) Shiina Ringo lyrics can really boost up your Kanji & Kotoba skills.
Serious.

Gibusu

あなたはすぐに写真を撮りたがる
あたしは何時も其れを厭がるの
だって写真になっちゃえば　あたしが古くなるじゃない

あなたはすぐに絶対などと云う
あたしは何時も其れを厭がるの
だって冷めてしまっちゃえば　其れすら嘘になるじゃない

don't　U　θink?　i　罠　B　wiθ　U

此処に居て
ずっと　ずっと　ずっと
明日のことは判らない
だからぎゅっとしていてね　ぎゅっとしていてね　ダーリン

あなたはすぐに　いじけて見せたがる
あたしは何時も　其れを喜ぶの
だってカートみたいだから　あたしがコートニーじゃない

don't　U　θink?　i　罠　B　wiθ　U

傍に来て
もっと　もっと　もっと
昨日のことは忘れちゃおう
そしてぎゅっとしていてね　ぎゅっとしていてね　ダーリン

また四月が　来たよ
同じ日のことを思い出して

my slumber

2008-12-02T03:20:00.002+08:00

Earlier tonight...
Reading Iqbal's blog.
"haha...kesian x dpt tido."

Now, 3:25 am, blogging thru iPod, on bed.
"Chiss...."

fashion

2008-11-30T22:21:00.002+08:00

I'm currently wearing this cute Blair-esque coffee brown satin head band with a tiered ribbon attached to the side, and a salmon pink puffed-sleeved polo t-shirt.

While putting on my kain batik yang digulung at the tummy area in a kain-pelikat style.

No picture available.

my brain

2008-11-30T12:58:00.002+08:00

fermentation.
information.
reduction.

Aah...it's been a while since i last use my brain. Like, really use it. Had trouble un-rusting it last week during the short Denki Kairo quiz @__@ hn, now since JLPT 1kyuu is just around the corner, i need to work harder. Because i failed it last year, haha. Saitei...But it seems that my kanji-skills are worsening each second. I even forgot how to write "mae". Yerp, thaaaaaats me! Aish...dou suru?

Ganbaru shika nai.

P/s: Joyce!! Can't wait to be in the same island wit ya!!

my future.

2008-11-29T06:55:00.003+08:00

ambition.
destination.
excitation.
subjugation.
nation.

Ritsumeikan. Or Kinki. Or both. But only one. Results from the interview last Friday have yet to come out. Even for TDU which suppose to have been out yesterday. Aah, i really want to go to Rits, if it isn't obvious. But no matter what, it'll still be in Kansai. I guess i'm a kansai kinda girl. Whatever that means. Haha...nande yanen.

Im excited. Anxious. Nervous...of what will be in the near future. Yeah, near. My, how time moves so quickly.

When will i know where i'll be going?

Or, actually...i do know. (Credits to Wada-sensei's lack of keeping-secret skills. That ayashii smile, hnn) But just want confirmation. On paper, written in bold with my name printed and spelled correctly. Aagh!

And i want my other Kansai-oriented-pals to go there too with me. To invade the land of Kansai! Ritsumeikan (or Kinki), here we come!!

of me

2008-11-28T10:21:00.003+08:00

Procrastination. Production.

I've been very lazy lately. Obvious thru the lack of update of this blog. Even my due-yesterday homework is not yet passed up. Haha, very little production on my part. I'm even writing this during my system control lecture. Haih... Need a new keyword.

Revolution. Resolution. Action.

keywords: ME

2008-11-28T00:45:00.002+08:00

procrastination.
production.

fermentation.
information.
reduction.

ambition.
destination.
excitation.
subjugation.
nation.

condemnation.
relation.

intoxication.
suffocation.
emotion.
temptation.

salvation.

Thanksgiving

2008-11-19T01:20:00.002+08:00

still...no ChuckxBlair interaction??!

its killing meh!

tick tock

2008-11-18T20:29:00.003+08:00

i thought i had this before. guess never stopped me.
patience. patience. patience.
breath in. and out.
people say when you give your best, it will pay someday.
well, my day isn't long. i've given time until before we reached japan.
none of it ever bothers you though, ain't it so?
whatever is heavy to me,
no more like a speck of dust to you.
bla bla bla.
i bet this whole thing will never even made it into your eyes.
bravo.
you are the best at making me worst.

(window)shoppaholic

2008-11-16T14:34:00.007+08:00

it seems like the sunway pyramid mall is too big to be ventured in a day alone.
and i'm the proof.

went there last week with didie, bought myself 2 pairs of shoes, and there i was again yesterday with farah, tim, wawa, and ejad + JADboys + a girlfriend. surveying blazers and coats whatsoever (plus cute tops). still x habis masuk semua kedai...adeh.

but nontheless, each and every time was fun. because of friends that are here with me. im so gonna miss them in nihon later :(

yesterday...

lol.

5 girls and a mcd's refill-able medium coke

xoxo

2008-11-11T23:53:00.003+08:00

chuck was not invited to blair's 18th birthday party??! how comee?!!

but the short father-son moment of chuck + his dad...well, they cleared up my "hazy" contacts effectively.

need to call pa. miss him :((

...butterflies?

2008-11-07T01:22:00.004+08:00

My favourite scene of Chucklair (Choclair? Yumm)/Chair/CxB so far (plus the limo scene *rawr*) Waiting for more CxB interaction in ep 10 >.< ep. 9 was, so-so.

Credits: Rai + Put for making me addicted to this series...

Love Blair's expression at 1:04 *rofl* XD

C: "I haven't slept, I feel sick, like there's something in my stomach...fluttering."
B: "...butterflies?"

lol...

kiiro-neko no tango..

2008-10-25T02:07:00.003+08:00

A kitten stalks put into the lift...ad ended up being cat-napped here. Tho, in the end we found out that the cute lil kitten is Shauki's. Still, here i am at put's baby-sitting baby-kittie yg chumel n manja...shall we call this nameless kitty manjalara? Huhu...neways, off to gals nite baby-sitting + gossiping :)

confessions of a shopaholic part II

2008-10-24T18:04:00.004+08:00

my babies~ + shmelly mr kuma-chan at the back, hehe.

Went to the metrojaya warehouse sale wit Put, Rai, Tim & Farah. Definitely worth it! Bought 5 perfumes for rm2** (the other two not in picture is for my fav person in the world's kouhai n his sis) and bought myself a revlon concealer + mascara (ive grown up, sob2) for rm20 My, if only ma was here, she would be borong-ing perfumes with me. Too bad CK have not restocked. Actly was looking for Vera Wang's Princess + Anna Sui's anything but wasn't sold there...still, im so satisfied :))) Didn't really checked out the clothes section, kinda blah to me...but bought two men shirt, for rm5 each, haha! My, like i said before. I love cheap stuff that looks expensive, and more I love expensive stuffs that gone cheap :)

My babies shmells nice, *snif2* ahh...

One

2008-10-22T23:49:00.003+08:00

Hey! Hey!
Mek suk ngan kitak
tak suk ngan mek kah
mek sik kesah.

Hey! Hey!
Mek sik bulak
kitak kacak
kedak pusak.

Hey! Hey!
Ho kamek kah
tak suk mek sahlah
kenak sik madah.

Hey! Hey!
iboh gago
iboh ngaco
iboh gago.

(Ulang)

Hey! Hey!
Mun dak kerak
mun dak pusak
rusak!!!

-oag-

[EDIT]
dengarkan disini!

Mish them...

2008-10-22T18:33:00.002+08:00

Get your own Family Sticker Maker & MySpace Layouts.

don't jump!

2008-10-14T22:11:00.004+08:00

Iqbal, thanks! hehe, somehow felt better :)

don't worry guys (that is, if you worry at all), i wont do stupid things. i need to rest, both my mind and body. sometimes things are too much. and while im on that, i need to polish up my literary skills...so that i can convey my artistry (if i got any) through words more effectively without causing misunderstanding. or, does that mean im sooo good, its believable? lol...

still, thanks friend. i'm glad to know there are real ones out there :)

sickness

2008-10-14T21:17:00.004+08:00

im gonna kill myself tonight
sorry pa, sorry ma
i love you
sorry friends, sorry neighbour
thanks
sorry dearest,
this is for you

let me ascend to the higher place
the inner death
and imaginary blood gushing out from my vein
yet its crystal through my eyes
let me be in a peaceful demise
a slumber
my temporary death.

papa n tech

2008-09-29T13:29:00.002+08:00

Pa bought a new blackberry
Which he keeps calling "blueberry" -_-"

Made caramel pudding for my family
Didn't know we have a "food-tester" among us
Adik Adi
And i got 9/10 for it
"Sebab manis gilak kak meen polah..." -_-"

Went to Sibu the other day
Roadkills everywhere
Blood and fur
*puke* -_-"

Found my primary school year's "buku karangan BM"
Then i realise
My BM back then was way better than now -_-"

To my fav person in the world
U mean so much to me
Kore kara mo ganbatte
With forex -_-"

With family
In Miri
On dial-up -_-"

-pantun english end-

i know what you did last pose...

2008-09-24T16:06:00.003+08:00

In Bintulu now, my last puasa & raya at home before going to japan soon...

The best thing is that *think* i've overcame my fear of flight. Yerp, you heard me right...im afraid of riding on the plane (quite ironic,since the only mean to go back home is by plane...) i think it all started right before entering JAD. Because before that, i've been flying back n forth from Miri to Bintulu (Fokker summore :s) so heiki-ly, back when i was still living with my aunt. But i still hate turbulence when u enter the clouds, brr...

Since i'm feeling a little grateful and blessed, i'll tell you bout what happened on the last day of puasa in Shah Alam...it goes like this...

"nk g bazaar x?" zack looked at me with big hopeful eyes,which said "mee jawa".
"boleh je" i replied, focusing more on the PAI notes scattered on the small foldable desk.
Traces of delight filled her face. i've been told that Fiza & Farah will be joining us too. Well, the more the merrier, i thought.

My mind was off during the exam, due to the pain in my tummy, and hunger thinking of all the kuih benderam(sp?) that i can eat later. Confident and satisfied with my answers (more like pasrah xdpt jwb) i left the hall early.

Even though most of us finished early, we ended up reaching our apartment at arnd 5:30. Only by 5:54 we were once again out for our mission.

With Baju kurunged F-sters (Farah n Fiza) and high wedge platformed zack, we strolled together in search for the cab. Thus greeted by the heavy loads of traffic filling our usually empty streets.

"jom tunggu cab dpn kilang gule je" and everyone walked summore, pictures of mee jawa, nasi kerabu played like mirage in front of us.

Vrroom! A bunch of kouhais in a car. Thanks for the dust. How we wish we have a car too. We suddenly remember. We saw a friend entering TBP just as we were starting out journey a few minutes ago. Iqbal...die baru je balik dgn plastik makanan yg sangat banyak...besnye...

Cab by cab passed us by, none which would stop for us...mostly because they're loaded with hungry passengers. Then from far away, we say two familiar looking creatures - Peyja & Jerou.

"nk g KFC kt Subang!" is how we read their lips, it wasa too noisy to actually hear each other. And we shook our head in synchronized coordination...the bazaar's meant much more to our hungry tummys.

After a good half an hour, feeling of regret sips into our minds, mybe we should've followed those guys...there's thousands of cars, hundreds of cabs, but none which will accommodate us. Then pass an auntie in a vacant car except for herself. We exchanged looks. She saw how desperate and how hungry we were...

Just as the traffic officer gave signal for the line to move, the auntie sped away, leaving us with dusts. Again,thank you for the dust.

As hunger, anger and desperation overcame us, we decided to cross the heavy traffic to the other side of the highway. Hand in hand, we walk through the crazy traffic, and made it to the centre of the divider.

"lapaa!!"
"mane cab nii??!"
"jam gle!"
"jom balik g kedai macik je"
"TANAK!"

In the midst of mad rambling and curses (isk, pose2!), another two familiar beings came into view, carrying heavy loads of luggage, waiting in front of Syasya.

"Wawa!! Didie!!" i screamed just to be ignored.

After a moment they saw us. They we're fighting for a cab too, and boy...how we understand their "jihad", their struggle to find a cab.

Somehow, standing at the divider doesn't feel to comfy. Especially at your feet. The grass maybe.

No.

SEMUT APIII!!! Argh! The pain! The agony!! All of us were like gadis-gadis digigit semut api, because we are. Wiggle to the left, to the right, stomp harder faster, tepuk2 kawan, but the small creatures prove to be mightier to us little beings...

...to be continued

musaddict

2008-09-24T00:58:00.002+08:00

Im currently museaddicted to "Cave" (i noe, its not new ;s)

Leave me alone it's nothing serious
I'll do it myself
It's got nothing to do with you
And there's nothing that you could do

You can see it and you can almost hear it too
You can almost taste it
It's nothing to do with you
And it's still nothing that you can do

So come in my cave
And I'll burn your heart away
Come in my cave
I'll burn your heart away

Please close your ears
And try to look away
So you never hear a single word I say
And don't ever come my way

You can see it and you can almost hear it too
You can almost taste it
It's nothing to do with you
And it's still nothing that you can do

So come in my cave
And I'll burn your heart away
Come in my cave
And arrest me for my mistakes

Rumah manis rumah

2008-09-22T23:55:00.000+08:00

Tadaimaaaa!!

At home<3

will do proper update later~

ishi power

2008-09-16T14:48:00.002+08:00

講義中です。haha...technology...

Of the many things to do;
Finish off 3 part Rits gansho :(
Momento 〆切今週
Presentation PAI
Packing!! Raya!!

posting from my ipod

2008-09-15T00:58:00.003+08:00

hoho,figured out a way to post here already... kewl. Neways, expect new layout soon :) off to unfinished gansho :a

Bless you

2008-09-14T22:36:00.003+08:00

Halfway through Ramadhan...

My, how time moves so fast. Too fast, I must say.

Late Atok (or "moyang" by standard BM) passed away in peace in the blessed month of Ramadhan, a few days ago (Khamis pagi). May her soul be blessed always. Love you 'tok, this Raya will be much different...you're always the jewel of our hearts. Miss you and your random funiness and your wiseness.

Many "other" things happened too during this blessed month, good and bad...bad because it's my own action probably is not so blessed, aha...well, mistakes and failures are for me to learn from.

1) I totally rugi USD50 (RM150)...need more practice

2) The iPod buyer backs out...tch!

3) Shopping(s)!! Went to Jalan TAR 1st trip, borong really cheap tudung & selendang (Rm5 & Rm3 respectively) ...then to Padini Warehouse Sale (spent Rm33 for 5 items! Bought 2 dress, a shirt, a belt for my fav person in the world, and a children blouse for my baby cousin = everything at Rm6 + baby cloth Rm9...a steal!!) second trip to Jalan TAR, borong more tudung...the usual Rm10 printed tudung for Rm5...borong for aunties and nek sedares :)

4) Exams...uggh. Hope I'll get good results...no more cr*p-result like last sem!

Waiting for Lailatul Qadar... :)

Ramadha

2008-09-01T01:25:00.001+08:00

Happy fasting, minna :)

May this year be a blessed time for us and our families. Forgive me for all wrongs that I did, intentionally or unintentionally, in-your-face or behind-your-back, yurushite kudasai :)

Confessions of A Shoppaholic

2008-08-30T16:50:00.002+08:00

confessions of a shopaholic.

if u consider intense window shopping as shopping too, than i'm one.

omg omg omg!!
Why YPM didn't give us money for shopping (for flying to Japan purposes la...ehem)

I've so much in my wish list now...to name some...

1) Formal/Cute cropped suit - saw plain (&warmer) one in MNG, but found a really cute squarey button ones too >.<

2) Skirt Wakako (by Wawa&Meen) - thanks to our former TA and her flow~ee skirt...it's suppose to be everywhere & ~~cheap~~ affordable... looking the versatile ones tho.

3) More shoes...wedges, sandals, peeptoes, sneakers, boots...

when am I going to be rich?? Haih...

p/s: OSUSUME!! Teppanyaki in Sunway Piramid...order Oyako-don, RM10.90 or for unagi (eel) lovers, Una-don RM18.90 (trust me, nasi yg banyak, shame Syasya...shame on you!!) definitely worth your every cent! Healthier than KFC, or McD, and fills your tummy just as well!! (P/S: order soft drinks, because you can refill...but then again after so full eating all that stuff, can't even stuff in water...burrp!)

p/s/s: by the way, bought eye-bag mask and hair clip...only. After 5 hours supposed-shopping-day-out...haha.

shopping

2008-08-18T18:45:00.002+08:00

Squidward drives (?) our KTM train.
Like, seriously.
"Khampunng Dhatuk Harunng"...at least the sengau-ness is pure Squidward standard.

Anyways, spent the whole weekend with beloved family...altho bara-bara. First met my aunt in KLCC (took a buggy back to hotel, yeehaa!), spent a night there, her room got such a nice view of KLCC. Then, of course, since we were so close to loads of shopping complexes, what else can we do...shopping!! I love cheap clothes that looks expensive. I love expensive clothes that had gone cheap, haha.

Then, met pa in KL Central, like always. Sometimes, i dont really feel they're that far away, except when i eat mazui nasi lemak...no one makes nasi lemak like ma does. Miss her loads. Oh, got buah mangga from our house, yay... Confirm manis la!! Just have to wait a few days for it to masak.

Then i went back, by train (courtesy of Mr. Squidward, LOL) And met a kouhai...whom i thought looked familiar but never crossed my mind that he was a kouhai until he tegur me "Eh, keluar sorang ke?" to which i replied very coldly "Un" because i was terkejut. Haha, i need to SERIOUSLY improve my social skills, haih, getting all nervous and shocked just because a kouhai says hi -_-'' pity him tho...if you're reading this, please know that i'm not that cold!!

P/S: We rock!! Heeyay Pikachu!! We wo~n x2, wuhu!

TOEIC

2008-08-16T01:27:00.004+08:00

yum2, Subway Sandwich courtesy of our beloved Shirin-sensei :) My burp still taste of mayo-crab, haha...

Well, today was half hectic half fun. Hectic because of Keisoku exam, and the usual daily Economics quiz, plus hantar report and so on. Fun because we had lunch - 30++ of us - with Shirin-sensei! Speaking of her, she have her own blog now http://andriaanuar.blogspot.com. Welcome to Blog no Sekai~

Basically, i don't really want to update because my fav person in the world's pic (in the previous post) fits just nicely in this small space of a layout, haha!

Dunno what else to say just... yipes! Lookie at the time...what am i doing here blogging when i have to wake up for JAD Family/Sports Day (yerp, u heard that right) tomorrow...by 7!! >.< aiyoo...

Neways, GO PIKACHU!! MINAMI!! KUNING!! KAMINARI SHOCK!!

Birthdays

2008-08-13T21:57:00.005+08:00

It's a birthday -darake month of August!

12th August 2008

Happy 20th birthday to my favourist-est person in the world, Wan Mohd Aizuddin... hope you liked the extra pedas sambal udang petai & telur cheese :) Thanks for everything, for being born to this world and be here with me and all of your friends... none of the gifts can match how you mean so much!! (tho i do hope you like it too >.<) May God bless you in everything that you do... kore kara mo ganbatte ne~

13th August 2008

Fiza-chan!! Happy Birthday!! My ex-roommate yg tidak pernah kering kontang...kerana asyik masuk air, haha! But that's what makes you special~ Hope you'll be rained (?) with success and happiness and blessings from God :) n thanks sbb ajar wat sambal udang petai, hehe... Org doakan Fiza leh makan udang, nanti leh mkn my sambal XD

Merry merry birthday guys! Luv ya!

iPod

2008-07-31T17:09:00.008+08:00

the iPod touch 8GB ad that i was talking about ^-^;;
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interested? e-mail me :)

toothfairy

2008-07-30T18:03:00.005+08:00

i hate dentists & doctors.
especially dentists.

my rm200 tooth is painful. great pain. aaargh!! im typing this in agony... shouldn't have gone to the dentist when it didn't hurt. yea yea...have an appointment after one month blaah. now it hurts more than before going to that place. and it hurts my wallet too. tch...kikis my duit only...& to think that i brush my teeth everytime after meal (even at gakkou)..

uhn...msged my fav person in the world just now. they were on their way to pangkor. ikanai kedo, hope you guys have a great time there :D

meanwhile, i'll struggle with this annoyance in my mouth.

p/s: just watched:
- Sindarela Last Episode
(OMG!! i'm half cheering for the very-not-typical-malay-drama-ish vibe of the whole series, and mourning because of the same reason. i wonder when will Malaysian TV broadcast those kind of shows again :s)
- We Got Married Ep. 20
(I love Crown J & In Young! A!!)
- CSI:NY
(with ma...way to enjoy mother & daughter evening...Murder!!)

p/s/s: oh...we had a family hair cut yesterday :) everyone got new looks! loving my new hair...

Merry!

2008-07-29T18:16:00.003+08:00

oh, it's someone's birthday today :) yerp, the one and only my-name-is-so-very-long Puteri Nur Anggia Murni, ~~also known as Putu-Kutu~~ a.k.a dinnermate, haha. Anyways, have a blessed years ahead in everything you do.

And yess, i would still give up my seat if ure in the train! haha~

wireless connection not working. aish...how to setup all this??

home sweet home

2008-07-28T17:22:00.003+08:00

ahh.. the air full of old sofa smell and cat furs. oh, another new kitten! the sight of dad's perfectly lined "how to be a millionaire" books (plus one "tersesat" One Piece manga), the same old white toyota-corona with punctured tyre in the corner of our parking lot, the messy living room, proving existence of chaosmaker-brothers, the dirty PC stained with oily fingerprints (my brothers playing game after ayam goreng meal), the place i call home...

buhbye shah alam. buhbye tbp. buhbye madness. yeah, im back. and im happy. (except for the fact that i got an SMS from YPM staff that reads "program tu compulsary, kedatangan diambil. lawatan tu special seminar" ignore2...like, who lies about their mother being sick? tch)

and after 4 long agonizing months, i kissed my ma's hand, pa's too (tho i met him in KL last week).

sooo looking forward for dinner :D

new look

2008-07-27T19:39:00.005+08:00

ahh, sorry mr lamb, i changed my layout again. :)

but still couldnt figure out how to put titles of previous entries in the archive, instead of just monthly archive link :s

neways, did Oosouji today! (altho its not yet the end of the year ^-^;) aah, my floors are shining, lalala~ Just hope the others will appreciate what i did to this house (yea rite, im expecting those with wet dirty feet walking on my polished floor very soon, tch.)

another note, got two e-books from a good friend, will read it soon. Monay2 come to mama!! Haha, its good ya know to have other skills rather than pateri wayar+ bashing our sponsors. Oh, i uploaded the iPod ad again, since the last one was bleh and there were no serious buyer. Check it out!

<....mudah.com.my have yet upload it. Ah, will update it in a few hours time then.>

should start packing for tomorrow! yeay~

shopping~

2008-07-25T22:42:00.003+08:00

went to Sunway. ALONE... *pity me...no one wants to kesiankan me, or volunteer be my bodyguard, haih*

Collected my card. Took quite a while since they filed my name as "Asmeen", tch. Bought adik2s' watch ^____^ comeyy... And, err, bought myself a new baju & seluar too, haha ^-^;; almost bought a kasut oso (it was on SAAAALLEE!!!) So people, SALE from 5th July till 1st September, shop till you drop!

As for the life as a JADian... @#$%^&*()(*&^%$# bought my ticket (return ticket) home, like, a week ago...and suddenly this whole "ada program, so tak boleh balik"-kwap. BAYAR BALIK ALL MY TICKET MONEY FOR ALL THIS 3 YEARS THAT U NEVER REFUND ME!

Heh, nk g Pangkor ade lak duit, nk wat English Day & Sukan punye la miskin... Sindrom *insert word* (ask Farah XD)

,,,,,,,,,,,,,

2008-07-24T23:21:00.003+08:00

........................................

FLUSH YOUR OWN EFFIN DISPOSED LIQUID IN THE EFFIN TOILET BOWL - WHICH, MOST OF THE TIME OR SHOULD I SAY ALL THE TIME, IM THE ONE WHO EFFIN CLEANS IT. IM NOT GONNA DOIT FOR YOU FOR EVERY EFFIN TIME COZ IM NOT YOUR CLEANER OR YOUR MOM. AND I HAVE NO IDEA HOW YOU GET ALL A'S FOR YOUR EXAMS, BUT PEE LIKE AN EFFIN CAT/DOG/ELEPHANT. YOU ARE SO EFFIN DISGUSTING, GO BACK TO SCHOOL AND LEARN ABOUT HYGIENE. OR AT LEAST LEARN HOW TO USE THE TAP WATER, HOSE AND A PAIL FULL OF WATER. STOP BEING HYPOCRITE BY DRESSING UP SO NICELY TO SCHOOL, FORGET ABOUT IRONING YOUR CLOTHES, DONT BOTHER WASTING YOUR PERFUME IF YOU CANT EVEN CLEAN YOUR OWN *insert word* AFTER "BUSINESS". YOU ARE DIRTY FILTHY DISGUSTING AND A LIAR SINCE YOU'RE PUTTING UP A SHOW TO EVERYONE THAT YOU ARE DECENT AND CLEAN FROM YOUR "HYPOCRITISM". IT DOESNT WORK TO ME. I HAVE TO CLEAN UP YOUR MESS EVERYTIME, WHILE YOU CAN ~~STUDIPLY~~ COMFORTABLY GO ABOUT YOUR LIFE. NOW GO TO...

THE TOILET AND FLUSH IT.
OR LICK IT,
WHICHEVER WORKS FOR YOU.

taMMat

2008-07-24T22:09:00.005+08:00

exam that is!!

Yaa-----------------------------------------------ay!!

Altho, i'm not so sure bout the result (really think i screwed up denki kairo -_-;; and of coz a bit of denshi, a slice of denjiki & a sprinkle of maths on top, haih)

Still, its a well deserved holiday...sort of, the whole ypm-suke-inform-last-minute-secara-tidak-formal thing is out of question. Err, bought my $$ ticket ady, sorrry~

Now, things to do

- update blog *check
- call ma<3 *check
- watch WGM *check
- kemas bilik + laundry...esok la
- call dentist
- collect card
- masukkan duit some-gal's-bf-named-jojo ;p
- mo-men-to!!!

Aah, miss ma & pa & adik2 so much...can't wait to go home! Looking forward to Monday!! Wuhuu~

3 days and a half

2008-07-13T17:27:00.003+08:00

...till exam, yet i'm doing this. Haih! -_-;;

Neways, i'm itching to share this!! A must-watch Shiina Ringo vid >_< カリソメ乙女（Tameikesannoh ver.）Karisome Otome (Temporary Virgin)

There's another version, with faster pace & in Japanese, カリソメ乙女（DEATH JAZZ ver.） & u can listen to it here >>

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Ah, for music/video leech-ers i dug up something evil *harharhar* well, if you already know bout this long long time ago (muka~shi muka~shi...) just...pretend that u dunno bout it, haha.

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I used to go to karabit.com &skreemr.com, but lately it doesn't seem to work well, plus it seems like the search is limited, always ended up having only 2 or 3 links :s

***i OWN half of Shiina Ringo songs...I have the CDs at home. But, Shiina-neesan...i promise I'll buy the rest of your albums when i get to Japan! Yakusoku!!

Pre-hiatus post

2008-07-06T11:10:00.004+08:00

A~h bought me self a *ehem2* very adult-ish, girl-ish, heels...haha! Similar design wit Tim, but its *gulp* pink! It was on sale, so ma... okane well spent (in case i plan use it as buki, uhuhu).

Neways, TAs went back last nyte, Hiroko-san cried while Akira-lanun calmly smoked his last cig in TBP... Gonna miss u guys much! Arigatou gozaimashita!!!!

And, my current activity...is studing (while watching "We Got Married"...seriously Put, it's all your fault!) Wish me luck in exam...and ganbarou all! Ameen.

Jya...will be away from blogging for sometime...wuu~ Mata ne!

yay~

2008-07-01T18:43:00.001+08:00

yay!

first time...ever, that i felt so satisfied with what i do.
mah baby...

counting down to exam time *tick tick*

bleh

2008-06-29T20:40:00.006+08:00

a bit late, but whatever.

Like they say "dah dapat restu orang tua." That orang tua is none other than papa-Mizuno-sensei *giggles*

Full support from him to go to Rits. He even promised to do bunsho together. And he congratulated me on going to Rits...as if i'm already accepted. Its very honoring...but, well somehow i feel stressed. Not like i'm the best or whatever, never even crossed my mind...especially now when all i do is (when i actually do something) last minute work, copy & paste and sleep in class... or stay awake without understanding anything. *sigh* i'm afraid of people having high hope on me.

Oh, ma's doing better now. Alhamdulillah. Still waiting for pa to post my stuff. I'll get active again with business after shiken kot, insyAllah. Really2 hope that it'll work out. Money baby!!

Tomorrow we'll have bussei quiz a~nd its 17 days to shiken no hi.

17.

Tasukete...

links links

2008-06-26T19:16:00.007+08:00

Haa, it's been a while since i posted something...er...useful? Haha. Mostly just links to sites that i've been reading lately...

Torah Jews against Zionizm - seeing Zionism in the eyes of Jews

==Brief intro, the difference between Orthodox Jews and Zionist

Ritsumeikan University - self explanatory

Vids~

Israel - peaceful & beautiful...we've always been fed with images of terror and bloodshed. Try looking at this tiny country at a different angle once. [edit] Bandingkan & fikir2kan keadaan saudara kita di sana...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I5tDDkvXSI8

PiKaPiKa Project - cool vid! Reminds me of hari raya and bunga api...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2zp-65Lwmh8

DIY Air Cond - will do this in nihon, to save denki dai~ hehe!
http://mefeedia.com/entry/diy-air-conditioning/7153495/

...don't know whatelse. Haha...

Well, yokei ya kedo... my name for the university interview with sensei is in the 2nd group. Meaning in between safe and abunai. I hope i'll still have the 'votes' to let me go to Rits *ameen* Hope everything goes well tomorrow..

RITSUMEIKAN

2008-06-23T13:19:00.001+08:00

...yosh. Kettei!!

Ganbarimasu.

My...

2008-06-22T13:26:00.004+08:00

My Windows Vista buat hal
My YM can't connect
My YM connected but shows everyone's offline
My YM can view but can't IM
My internet connection on off
My house's wiring owes trip(sp?)
My lenses koyak
My toilet is dirty-ed (rules schmules eyh?)
My arms are painful from i-dunno-what
My heart broke/is breaking/meant to be broken
My eyes sore
My butt sore
My trust lessened
My IQ dropped
My teddy bear Kuma-chan is balding
My shoes sikit
My wallet is "dry"
My hate thickened
My stress ~~doubles~~ quadrupled
My tummy lapar
My blog is boring.

sepet

2008-06-21T04:09:00.010+08:00

my eyes are.

but still can't sleep. urgh...

そうなりたくない。ずっと幸せにいたい。平気で真な笑い声で笑いたい。アマユメを見ながら寝たい。

suddenly feel so ugly...
wish i am pretty

GOD fix my disorder. im on the verge of losing myself.
Please put my mind away from all this and make me forget...
and maybe forgive.

let me sleep for a while...
ameen.

5-1

2008-06-21T01:46:00.004+08:00

おめでとーぉ！

Yay~ all cheers to JAD football team under the management of Sir Bintat a.k.a Zarir n last but not least the creator, Sonoya Sensei. 5-1 baby!! Ramdhan & Gg each one shy of a hatrik plus the opening goal by Zaim. みんなカッコよかったでぇ！お疲れ様でした。 Hehe...

Took loads of piccies (with Jaja's camera ^-^;;) but its yet to be uploaded. Dakara, mattete! Will update with pic-entry very soon :D

ookina ojiisan no tokei

2008-06-19T23:04:00.005+08:00

[music: shiina ringo -sakuran]

Exam is less than a month away.
*panic2*

Daigaku anke-to is due tomorrow (or is it monday?).
*kyaaa~*

We're off to Nihon in about 9 months, insyaAllah.
*koufun2*

Haa...time moves so slow at times it makes you fall in a slumber, but when you're awake it's already too far away when you were before...

Chatted with a long lost friend/ex-boss of mine, who's back from France for 2 months hols. He rounded Shah Alam without me knowing :( huhu. Miss the old times...and my sengal friends. *sigh* Now i'm getting more & more homesick...called ma and she said she's not feeling well. Hope she gets well soon, ameen.

:::Bought 2 more tudungs from dear neighbour Ejad :D one for ma & one for meself...yay!

kipas

2008-06-18T00:02:00.007+08:00

[song: aizat - sahabat (OST Sindarela)]

This is an "uchiwa" = fan. (courtesy of Ritsumeikan)

This is an "uchiwa" fanning a laptop.

This is my "economic-cooling-pad" system.

...need to get the real one. I've been spending time online/playing with ma lappie-shyg a lot.

Neways, today is the 2nd day of this week's jikken. Like always, there's always something wrong with our souchi/equipment. Kekkyoku, we didn't finish everything today, meaning we have to continue early tomorrow morning then. *sigh* And this is how serabut everything is...

Wish i could play with all the souchi a lot more. Seriously need to know/do everything BY MYSELF. 最近アホんなっちゃった。Tch...

ringo loves

2008-06-15T19:11:00.002+08:00

I lurrve this PV. It's so nicely done...how the faceless origami-like creature can show emotions >.< & the song is very nice too. i luv shiina ringo!!

Negaraku & My future

2008-06-13T23:43:00.009+08:00

Tadaima~ back from BTN Kem Bumi Jati, safe & sound with all limbs still attached :D

Naa, actually it wasn't that bad. Or should i say it was great, for a skema-tic camping. Food was real great, better than hiked-priced-SyaSya. Too bad our "kembara" was canceled last minute :( (yea rite).

Honestly speaking, before going all of us were so dang sure we're gonna be brainwashed to "peke" The-Dacing, to be celup-ed into smelly mud, and to be fed cat food. And i'm not a fan to the Sejarah subject either (though i enjoy knowing bout our history as a story or general knowledge, not as a subject to pass in school). But thankfully, it wasn't so. For all my 20 *gasp* years of being alive, i've never thought of not knowing about my own country. I thought i knew what i should already know. Sadly, as my fellow JADians, i don't.

I'm lost when talking about the constitution, i'm not aware of my rights, i'm dumbfounded by my ignorance of the sacrifices made by those who fought for our independence and i'm ashamed that i don't realise it all. Sure, political issues were discussed openly, but by no means trying to tell us to support any particular party...altho, maybe at certain times it might sound as so, but with open mind and the urge to know, i'm more concerned to know more than to be irked. Now i know why certain decisions are taken and why certain tragedy/events happened. Nothing that our high-school text book will tell us directly.

I strongly recommend those who chose to oppose or believe blindly of our present leaders and constitution, to do in-depth research and think openly and un-biased-ly from all aspects before making our own conclusions of the happenings in our beloved Malaysia. Think outside the box and look at the box of it's 6 sides. Only then shall we make our judgment maturely and correctly, based on facts and not opinion.

Sebab kemerdekaan & kedaulatan negara kita seperti nyawa, bila2 Allah boleh tarik balik.

A~neways... today is our University Fair (大学説明会). As usual, my focus is on Us in Kansai areas, in other words Ritsumeikan Univ & Kinki Univ. Somehow, i think i already have one toe (not feet >.<) in Rits. Since Mizuno-Sensei have "cop" my forehead with Rits logo, i've also lost interest to know about other Us, haha. Man, his first words whenever he sees me are "Hait, Ritsumeikan." I'm not sure whether that's good or bad *nervous laugh* Well, at least now i only have to think of which gakka to enter (have 2 in mind) in doing so taking in account of the research that i want to do (basically i want to help the environment...through the kaihatsu of battery??) and most importantly brushing up my rusting denjiki/kairo/maths/nihongo/mensetsu skills... *sigh*

The question left is 広く浅い、狭く深い？

-end of a very long post for the day-

4 in the morning....

2008-06-09T03:36:00.000+08:00

Its almost 4....and im wide awake with zarith (my 2nd tetamu in the house this weekend, wuuh!) reading peyja's blog (points to "hairul" link) and having our girl nights gossiping & heart-pouring session...huhu.

But...

...we're leaving TBP at 2 ~~tomorrow~~ today. And i've yet packed my stuff. Aish...

Murderer

2008-06-08T18:57:00.000+08:00

Finished shopping for BTN...no money left. So much for saving up & making money :s But hisashiburi ni jalan2 with Zack, haha *huggles pooh*

BTW, the passport pic that i edited last nite turned out to be "...too big. Your head. It should be shoulder up." said the photo-shop lady. " We call this type of pic the 'Wanted' pic."

*pang*

..........okay. Sooooo, i did do one or two bad things (probably more). But i'm no criminal T______T

Too lazy to pack. Can i do it later? :s

Yay!

2008-06-08T02:43:00.001+08:00

Yay!

引越ししました！:D Berkati rumah baru dengan bismillah & yassin...ameen.

It's almost 3:30, and Rai is sleeping so soundly on the floor of my last-minute-clean-up-ed room XD (*click click* put Rai's sleeping piccie on eBay, its on sale~ lol!)

Finish editing my own passport pic too, finally! Ohoho... It turns out quite ok, hope the BTN ppl won't notice anything wierd with it :P Still need to go find baju kurung putih 2moro & print the pics.
Haih...

O~h, sleep2...oyachumi!